It follows me everywhere, even into my dreams.

I swear you cant escape this shit, it follows you everywhere…. even into your sleep! Not that Im able to sleep that much anyway, when I do it’s usually from pure exhaustion. But when I do fall asleep it sure would be nice not to be interrupted by a terrifying nightmare involving an acute severe […]

How low can it go?

Having documented a significant, but relatively slow decline in my lung function over the past decade, Ive often wondered what life must be like for other asthmatics who have a baseline FEV1 below 25%. Well, now I know. According to the last spirometry results, which I did for my annual SARP follow up visit last […]

Did you bring a note ?

Back in the old days when you got sick and ended up in the hospital, it was probably because your primary care doctor put you there. Boy, have times changed. Nowadays you have one set of doctors who see you in the clinic when you’re doing well, another set of doctors who see you if […]

ICU delirium got a hold on me

If you’ve suffered from asthma for any length of time and/or have been hospitalized for it, no doubt you’ve experienced some of the not so pleasant side effects of corticosteroids, or possible psychosis from being in the intensive care unit for any length of time. Being in and out of the hospital and on steroids […]

I feel your pain

Feeling like shit right now? Is your asthma, COPD or other breathing disorder flaring up or bothering you more than usual? Were you searching the web for asthma related stuff as a way to cope with your own crappy breathing? Is that how you reached my blog? Well I can tell you that you’re not […]

Im an A hole when Im sick

Most people will tell you Im one of the sweetest, most caring people you’ll ever meet. But make no mistake, when Im recovering from a bad asthma exacerbation, I can become an obnoxious asshole… I get anxious, I get irritable, I get angry and nasty all at the same time. I snap at everyone and […]

Self Observations: FEV1 and Breathlessness

Always curious about things, earlier this week I did a series of FEV1 measurements on myself. I wanted to see if my dyspnea(shortness of breath)which waxes and wanes throughout the day, would correlate with my FEV1 readings. I took the first reading early in the morning when my breathing is at its best. I blew […]

The “A” word

Im talking about the other A word…. ANXIETY As a Respiratory Therapist and a lifelong asthmatic, I know all too well that anxiety and breathlessness usually go hand in hand. Still, I often catch myself getting a little defensive when a medical person abruptly brings up the A word and asthma in the same sentence, […]

3 Good Weeks

For the life of me I can’t figure out why my breathing was so good from those last 2 weeks in January all the way till Feb 3rd. When I say “good” I don’t mean like a return to normal lung function or even a significant decrease in symptoms, but still what I experienced during […]

Duke

Duke …aka snuggle bug

When it rains it pours. Our hearts have never been so broken for so long. Why does this keep happening to the ones that bring us so much joy. It’s barely been 4 weeks since Milo’s passing, and now this morning we had to put to asleep yet another one of out beloved cats. His […]

12 month Update

It’s almost 2013 and I just realized I really haven’t posted a breathing status update in almost a year. Probably the biggest change that I’m noticing, is that my dyspnea is getting more pronounced and more constant. Where I used get 8 or so “good” breathing hours a day, I’m down now to less than […]

Air-Trapping

Ive written about this before, but this is such an important an misunderstood topic; one that effects most chronic lungers and causes more suffering than any other respiratory symptom, that Ive decided to write a little bit more about it. Most of the information that Ive been able to find on the internet regarding air-trapping […]

Getting that Monkey off my Back

I haven’t blogged about this experience until now, because frankly, I been too sick to sit in front of the computer for more than a few minutes at a time. You see exactly 2 weeks today, I stopped taking one the most physically addictive substances known to man.. Methadone! (Some might say even worse than […]