Advance Health Care Directive

The events of recent weeks has made me think really hard about just how long I want to continue this fight and under what conditions. With 135 hospitalizations under my belt, including dozens of near-fatal exacerbations and a declining quality of life, I find myself asking the question more and more….When is enough, enough? I […]

Survive an attack, register for a marathon

Makes sense to me…… Get really sick, spend time in the hospital, come home exhausted and depressed, and then immediately sign up to do a 26.2 mile foot race. But then again I’m probably not your typical chronic lunger. After finishing my 8th marathon back in 2011, I had basically shrugged off the notion of […]

Im an A hole when Im sick

Most people will tell you Im one of the sweetest, most caring people you’ll ever meet. But make no mistake, when Im recovering from a bad asthma exacerbation, I can become an obnoxious asshole… I get anxious, I get irritable, I get angry and nasty all at the same time. I snap at everyone and […]

Self observations : Steriod insomnia

For probably the first time in 50 years of cycling on and off of steroids, it came to me in a flash last night, that the reason I can’t sleep when on steroids, is not because I have too much steroid in me, but rather not enough. For the past 14 days Ive been in […]

Buried Alive

The photo is from the movie “Awake”, but what happened to me last September was not fiction.. It was the real deal! Back on Sept 20th of 2010, I was admitted to the hospital for a severe asthma exacerbation(so what else is new). About 8 hours into the exacerbation, my breathing took a turn for […]

104th trip to the slammer for Asthma

Greetings from the 14th floor isolation room a top the Moffitt building at UCSF medical center in San Francisco. Your guest host for tonight’s show is..well, me of course. I’ll be discussing how much fun it is being a patient in the hospital with severe asthma. Just happy to be alive, I was hoping to […]

I’m blessed

You know what? I might be cursed with crappy lungs, but I sure seem to be blessed with some cool and caring friends. Case in point: After spending a pretty ugly night in the local ER, I woke up the next day to find a bunch of Facebook alerts on my phone. My talented friend […]

Trapped in the yellow zone

We all know what it’s like to be in asthma purgatory for a few days or maybe even a few weeks, but for 2 months? Geeze, cut me some slack would ya! Seriously, except for a string of 6 days in the middle October when I still on high doses of pred, Ive been in […]

It’s been a rough couple of months

October has traditionally been a bad month for my asthma (and I’m sure I’m not alone on that), but this is the first time Ive been sick for most of September as well. No doubt about it… this has been a humdinger of a flare. Ive been out of the hospital for an entire month […]

No Cowbells for Stephen

You train hard and wait months in anticipation to accomplish a goal you’ve been aiming for, and then BAM! ….in a matter of hours, a severe